I sit here

Today, I'm sitting with my wee cat Faith just enjoying the moment. Nothing but me, the cat, and some tv to talk to me. I just wanted to write something so you all know i'm alive... how morbid is that?

long time no see

LONG TIME NO SEE!!!

Self inflected torture

Hey, nonexistent people!

It appears that I am torturing myself by way of watching the guy i (really really) like spend an enormous amount of time with his girlfriend AND pick her up! It's beginning to bum me out an enormous way. :( So that's where I'm at right now. Hopefully a good night's rest or a sleepover with my friend will do the trick...but probably not. Him and I are in class together and the more I see him...the more I like him.

What I wrote on Friday

I know I may not have lived the happiest life, but I’ve lived a damn good story. Some people may say I’m using my pain as a means of getting money, no, I use them as a means of saving lives. To think that 7 short months ago I wanted nothing more then to die, and to sit here now and type it all out on my laptop? I would say that that’s more then a means of getting money, that’s a means of saving lives. I write this to help me feel, to help me cry, to take away the guilt of all the torture I’ve put my poor body through, to alleviate the mental guilt, to clear my mind, but most importantly to give hope. If my story saves your life then, yes, I have succeeded. So let people find this! Let them read this! Let them analyze it! Let them shout it to the world that “Ramona Lynn Chatman-Morris has found hope, she has found love, and she has found peace”. My life has been full of ups and downs, highs and lows. Ranging from the day I got accepted to high school to the day when my mother died. It’s a roller coaster that I will keep on riding, enjoying, hating, enduring each day for the rest of my life. I regret only one thing, that that poor little new 14 year old me did not experience the hope, the peace, and the faith in myself that I am experiencing now.

Welcome!

Hey!!!! I'm sure that like NO ONE reads this.

But sometimes it's just nice to say things --yeah, maybe no one reads or listens to them-- but they need to be said. More for you than for anyone else.